Happy Birthday little Bean

At 2:44am last year I held my whimpering little bean in my arms for the first time. It took us a little while to find our groove, but we worked our way through it and found the perfect rhythm for our little family. This past year has been the hardest and most rewarding to date. I never realized how intense the love and bond a mother has for her child could grow to be, how the love I already felt for my husband would intensify as I watched him become a father, and how I would find new traits in myself that I never knew were there.

I am still struggling to to find the perfect balance, to maintain my identity while still giving all of my heart to being a mother, and all of my passion to being wife. I have learned it's not something to be rushed, something I will learn with time, and I am lucky enough to have an amazing mother to serve as my role model.

In a little less than 4 hours, Happy Birthday Julian Thomas, my little mush, the tiny ferocious monster. Happy first year of fatherhood to my amazing husband Nick, for being there for me and supporting me when I felt I was failing, for getting up for midnight, 2am and 4am feedings even when you had work the next day. This year has been intense, and I can't wait to see what the future has in store for us.

Adventure Awaits!!